tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-82595612011-04-21T15:36:36.333-07:00-ccy-http://www.blogger.com/profile/12060522777099996436noreply@blogger.comBlogger161100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8259561.post-1143292972990101662006-03-25T05:19:00.000-08:002006-03-25T05:22:53.000-08:00just posting these songs as i've just discovered them by an artiste called Cosima. the lyrics are really close to the heart. truly beautiful songs which makes me cry everytime i hear them,...<br /><br /><em><em><strong>Painted on My Heart:</strong></em></em><br /><br /><em>i thought you'd be out of my mind<br />and i'd finally find a way<br />to learn to live without you<br />i thought it ws just a matter of time<br />'til i had a hundred reasons<br />not to think about you, but it's just not so<br />after all this time i still can't let go<br /><br />Chorus:<br />i've still got your face painted on my heart<br />drawn upon my soul<br />etched upon my memory, baby<br />and i've still got your kiss still burning on my lips<br />your touch on my fingertips<br />this love so deep inside of me, baby<br />i've still got your face painted on my heart<br />painted on my heart<br /><br />i've tried everything that i can<br />to get my heart to forget you<br />but it just can't seem to<br />guess it's just no use<br />in every part of me there's still a part of you<br />(chorus)<br /><br />something in your eyes keeps haunting me<br />and i try to escape you<br />and i know there's just no way to<br />no way to chase you from my mind<br />(chorus)</em><br />---------------------------------------------<br /><br /><em><em><strong>I Just Wanna Cry</strong></em></em>:<br /><br /><em>don't think of you as much as i used to<br />since we've been apart i don't miss you<br />don't dream of youthe way that i did before<br />i learned to live my life without you<br />i don't really need you anymore, but<br /><br />Chorus:<br />i just wanna cry<br />when i see you walking by<br />i just wanna die<br />hurts so bad inside<br />but i just smle<br />and you'll never see it show<br />'coz i'll never let you know<br /><br />i've moved on<br />i barely remember<br />all those times we shared together<br />now that you're gone<br />all my time is mine alone<br />i can do anything i want to<br />i feel so much better on my own, but<br />(chorus)<br /><br />don't think i'm sad because it's over<br />i'm more than happy on my own<br />i'm finally over you<br />i don't need you, but<br />(chorus)<br /><br />don't think of you<br />as much as i used to</em><br /><br />i do not deny i still love him... but i could nv allow myself to b in an abusive relationship. it goes against my principles... i'm forvever encaptured by him... as contradicting as this may sound.<br />i really thought we'd last. i must let go,...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8259561-114329297299010166?l=cydots.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>-ccy-http://www.blogger.com/profile/12060522777099996436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8259561.post-1125058576614877772005-08-26T20:16:00.000-07:002005-08-26T05:16:16.620-07:00gosh,.... 2dae was e start of my prelims!!!! english,........... hahas,... it was,.... okaaaaay,.... juz that e vocab part was really tough,..... hahs!!! neways,.. chinese is on Monday!!!! sooooo gt jia you!!!! :)<br /><br />i dunno wad i did 2dae,.... i was juz soooooo shagged out by everything that i let a day slip by!!!! o no,..... i needed today for my chinese revision,.. haiz..... guess tmr i gt start real early to make up,..... <br /><br />dunno wad's happening,...... feel like my body's breaking down on me....... lord, keep me strong i pray!!!! i can do all things through Christ hu strengthens me!!! yes i can,....<br /><br />recently composed a song!!!! its my second composition in this lifetime,..... so far at least,... best thing of all,.... its a CHRISTIAN song!!! yay!!!! i wrote it when i felt really trapped!!!! tired out,........ but,...... judging from those who have heard it so far,...... its a fairly nice tune!!!! hahas,.. but i personally feel the tune needs abit of help!!! maybe major help,.. hahas.,.... i've recorded it on e piano n vocals seperately... hahas,...... nice!!!! feel really accomplished!!!! i'm kinda thinking of using a personally somposed song for my level's performance during YC this yr,.... maybe,..... but it sure needed help.,.. hahas,..., a song which conveys how we stood strong in times of trouble,..... i song full of tears,..... n hurt,...... but of renewal,.. of refreshment,.. :)<br /><br />hahas,... think i'm going crazy,.... n miss church LOADS!!!!!!!!! i miss e fellowship, miss everyone,... but most of all,..... I MISS PRAISING E LORD!!!! i can only do it in my quiet times,..... which are actualy e times when mum's nt hm,... which is a veri rare occurence!!!! haiz,......... y do my parents nt let me go to church??? they r baptised ,... both!!! whereas,.. i have nt,.... yet,.... i still wanna go,..... they say studies to b over anything else,...... but pls,.. this is my religion,.. sumthing nt juz a facet of this world,... it is real,... God is beyond reality!!! he's e creator of all things!!! without him,. there'd b no me,.... mum n dad,... or even studies!!! y y y???? help me understand,.... they say he's understand,.. but i cant!!! argh,....<br /><br />there r sooooo many worries,...... tooo many to handle,..... dunno if i can pull thru Os this yr,..... it'd b a miracle!!! haiz,........... i guess thats wad its suppose to b,.. a miracle,....<br /><br />guess this IS a test of my faith,... sumthing that'd really either make or break me as a christian,.... well,... i hope its e first,.... :)<br /><br />k,... gtg,........ hope everyone else is doing fine out there,.... -God Bless!-<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8259561-112505857661487777?l=cydots.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>-ccy-http://www.blogger.com/profile/12060522777099996436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8259561.post-1125057606219629992005-08-26T04:59:00.000-07:002005-08-26T05:00:06.223-07:00<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8259561-112505760621962999?l=cydots.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>-ccy-http://www.blogger.com/profile/12060522777099996436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8259561.post-1123220642568181102005-08-05T13:53:00.000-07:002005-08-04T22:44:52.880-07:00hahas,.. helo my dear blog!!! gosh!!!! ur so pathetic,.. LOL!!!! no tagboard even!!! nvm,.... all can b arranged AFTER Os!!! rmb!!! studies comes first,... yes it does!!!<br /><br />yesterdae read johnson's blog, such a sad sad sad entry!!!! i cried!! do u noe that???? hahas,.. coz i can sympathise, i gt a dog too k!!! sadness,.. jelly's gonna b put to slp,... poor guy,.... he seems soooo upset!!! wish there was sumthing i cud do,... but, i'm in no power,... haiz!!!<br /><br />tmr i'm gonna watch CHARLIE N E CHOCOLATE FACTORY!!!!! YAY!!! all thx to mr rubbish talker, aka jonah,... hahas!!!!! finally!!!! after waiting sooo long!!!!! then,... i'm gonna haf my clique over at my hse!!! for study gp cum testing jolene's cooking!! coz her Os for FnN prac is on mondae,.. so we're letting her try her culinary skills on us!! hahas,.. n we'll b studying while she is cooking!!! wad a good way of spending our time right??? hahahas,.... i'm soooo msart!! ego!!!LOL,.... gosh, i'm rubbish talking now,..<br /><br />guess wad??? 2dae mrs yeo isnt arnd!! so, i'm currently using her lesson to type this entry!!! hahas,...... i hate maths! its sux big time!!! hu agrees???? LOL,...<br /><br />k,.... kinda hyper now actualy,.. LOL,..... dunno,.. i guess i'm all excited at e prospect of watching e movie!!!! o,.. n FESTIVAL OF PRAISE starts 2dae!!!! i gt e "tix" or wadeva u call it frm 77th street,.. they gave it to me,..... i wanna go n see wad is it like!!!!! but... dun think mum'll allow,.. n i haf no one to go with!!!! ahh,.... its till this sundae,... only three daes!!! omg,.... i wanna go,......<br /><br />there's soooo many things i wanna do now!!! haiz,. but time doesnt seems to b on my side,... Os r like,... sprinting nearer!!!! o no,... soooo FAST!!! hahas,..... but at least,....... its nt here yet,.. in a way,...<br /><br />i've been working real hard to improve my subjs n guess wad?? i gt 26.5 upon 30 for chem bio test!!!! highest in class,... also25.5 upon 30 for bio!!! also highest in class,... BUT those r like,.. 2 tests out of a whoe lot more others,.. sooo its kinda pathetic,... BUT I'M TRYING!!!! hahas,.. wish me luck!!! i've been spending tonnes of time on my math recently,.. hopefully,... i'll improve my sucky subjs!!!! haiz,.. combines humans n maths!!!! gross!!!! i suck at those,.....<br /><br />i'm,...... hyper!!! LOL..... ok,... i beta go n chill sumwhere,.... will write another time!! (dunno when's e nxt time tho,.. but b a long way off,.. hahas!!)<br />bye bye my dear blog!!!!! chaoz!!!<br /><br />-God Bless- "Lord, strengthen me i pray.."<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8259561-112322064256818110?l=cydots.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>-ccy-http://www.blogger.com/profile/12060522777099996436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8259561.post-1120812338684412202005-07-08T16:45:00.000-07:002005-07-08T01:45:38.690-07:00GOSH!!! 2dae's such a HOT HOT HOT DAe!!!! cant take it,... dying here,..<br /><br />life at hm's real tough,... dunno wad's happening,... mum saed " y muz u make our lives sooooo MISERABLE???!!!" omg,... that really hurt me real bad!!! to tell truthfully,.. when i heard that,.. e first thing that came to mind was to run away,... i'm serious,... how pathetic,... but!!! i managed to calm myself b4 doing anything drastic n silly,.... do i really make their lives miserable!!!??? she saed she gives up on me... washing her hands clean of me,... am i that detestable??? its like i cant even haf a civilised tok with her anoymore,... my heart really aches,... y??? am i incorrigable??? haiz,..<br /><br />been sick for e past 2 daes,..... weird fever,... going on n of,.... making me break out in cold sweat,... weird!!! n mum doesnt believe that i'm sick,... she's saes i'm pretending,.. maybe its coz she doesnt care anymore.... wad happened??? y's she doing this to me??? she's MY MOTHER for ***'s SAKE!!! omg,...... dunno wad's happening,....<br /><br />hormones have been getting out of control recently,... dunno whether izit juz eye candy??? or izit i really like ****..... weird,...... n then, there's **, i still veri much love him....its sooooooo hard to tell myself that this cant go on,... even emily saed he's a good man,... i agree wholeheartedly...... but i guess,... studies haf to come first.... hormones r weird!!! making my heart jump non-stop for weird reasons,..... really miss his touch tho,... wish i cud hug him... but i noe i cant... heart's breaking,,,... trying to get over it,..... hard!!!<br /><br />life's weird,..... that's all i can sae,..... my air-con died on me,.. so sad!!!! n summore,... S'pore's SOOOOOO HOT!!!!! gosh,... e heat's killing me,...<br /><br />is she a jekyll n hyde??? or izit juz a figment of my imagination??? i hope its e second option,,... wad if its not???? sooooo many r gonna b hurt,.... veri troubled by this,.... sumtimes i juz wish i was oblivious n stupid,.. ignorant to my surroundings,.... nv reading body languages n innuendos,.....<br /><br />really really really veri tired now.,.... fell like i need to break down.... can sumone lend my a shoulder to cry on???? trying to stay strong.,...<br /><br />hope things between mum n i will get beta,.... coz it'll affect her health,... hope dad's getting beta oso,......<br /><br />really hope ***** will open up n tell me wad's going on,.. maybe he is,.. but i'm juz soo troubled by other stuff to see e picture,... feel really bad,.....he saes he may see me during e anniversary dinner,... i sure hope so,.... juz wanna noe he's fine,....<br /><br />y r things sooooo complicated???<br /><br />really appreciate my frenz tho,... thx for always being there 4 me,...<br /><br />haiz,... well,... i guess i gtg,..... *CHAO!!* -God Bless-<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8259561-112081233868441220?l=cydots.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>-ccy-http://www.blogger.com/profile/12060522777099996436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8259561.post-1122828656455119232005-07-01T00:51:00.000-07:002005-07-31T09:50:58.376-07:00its been a really long time since i last blogged,... gosh!!! really need to do sumthing bout it,... but, things r soo hectic now! there's pratically no time,.. haiz,... neways,...<br /><br />farewell'05 for choir's this fridae!!! OMG!!!! feel like crying,... i'm literally steeping away frm e love of my life!!! ahh!!! bought all e prezzies yesterdae tho!!!! all thx 2 shi hui!!! a GREAT fren!! luv her tonnes!!!<br />neways,... i bought EVERYONE prezzies!!! couldnt resist it!!! coz i;m gonna miss every single TINY detail of CHOIR!!!! GOSH!!!! e tears r flowing!!! aha,... i think e funniest ones will b e ones for my sec ones!!! i bought them BABY BIPS!!! n i'm writing "Choir's BABY" on e front!!!! iznt that CUTE??? hahas,... i think it suits them veri well as they'd always b e choir's babies to me.... *SOBX!!!*<br /><br />well well,.. besides that,... e farewell theme is PUNK!!! siao~~~ how to dress punk??? i'm sooooo non-punkish!! hahas,.. all e sec 4s almost killed e juniors LOL!!!! but i guess,.. that's e fun of it all!!!! really excited!!!!! yet reluctant for it to come,... coz that'll mean e end of my choir journey with e SN CHOIR!!! GOSH!!! LOVE U GUYZ LOADS!!!!! ur rawk my SOX!!! hahas,...<br /><br />on another note,... e mock exams haf started!!! tmr's gonna b my english mock~! n i dunno howta prepare for it!!! ah!!!,.... well,...... the weeks b4 n ahead r tough!!!! on e average,.. its about 6 tests/exams per week!!!! ahh!!!!!!! dying here.//// really need ta stay strong,. but my body seems to b giving way!!!!! wad's happening??? -.- sadness..<br /><br />well,... i really miss yy loads,... howeva!! studies MUZ come first,.... gosh!!!! e tug of e heart-strings!!! wad'll happn nxt??? i dun even noe!!!<br /><br />reminisence has settled in for me,... many sad stuff r flooding back,.... but i dun want them to!!! many things that r happening now seems to b history repeating itself!!! n mind u,.. they arent happy thots at all!!!! its like,... they've come back to haunt me!!! ahh,.. nightmares,... y??? ahh,.....i hate being reminding of my past life,.... it was pathetic!!!<br /><br />y do we always feel left out sum way or another??? haiz,.. it always seems so,... even things R beta,.... its nt them or anyone,... i think it's LIFE!!! sure kinda sux,...haiz,.. i guess its coz of my past n life experiences that i can nv go back e other way n b a diff person,... there muz b sum reason behind all this,... i guess i juz havent seen or found it yet,....sad case... maybe they hate me for my guts!!!!! i think it runs in my family,... dao meh!!!<br /><br />there was a misunderstanding of me a few mths back,..... i was injustly wronged,..... n my fren helped me sort it out by being e mediator,.... howeva,.... e nxt time i saw e frens which wrong me,... they NV saed a word of sry!!!!! that broke my heart.,... i mean,.. till now they havent saed anything.,.. NT A WORD OF E SITUATION AT ALL!!!! is this evidence of their guilt??? understandable,.. but PL:S!!! SAE SUMTHING ABOUT IT!!! ur hurt me real bad n expect me to juz put it behind me n heal???? thats like throwing me in e dump!!!,.... despite all this,.. i still gt show ur that i'm happy,.. yes!! i AM happy that things have gotten beta,... but a word of sry would heal my hurt,..... now,.,. i'm broken,...... haiz,.... people seem to take other for granted BIG time!!! sad sad case,..<br /><br />that was a little part of me buried deep down in me..... i try to forget it everidae,..... but i seem to fail everytime.....<br /><br />things R hard now,.... but i'll cope!!! bo worries bout that......<br /><br />Lord, keep me strong i pray,...<br /><br />-God Bless!!!-<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8259561-112282865645511923?l=cydots.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>-ccy-http://www.blogger.com/profile/12060522777099996436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8259561.post-1118244178224339582005-06-08T23:15:00.000-07:002005-06-08T08:24:14.600-07:00hahas,..... life's improving!!! frm being wronged, to feeling juz right at hm,.... i'm really glad things worked out fine,.. juz hope it doesnt fizzle out n i get taken for granted again,... it really hurts,.....<br /><br />anyways,.... I'VE BEEN RECEIVING WISHES FRM SO MANY PEOPLE!!!!! yay!!!! hahas,... really made my week,.... a hectic week,.. but, i love it!!!!! 2dae, a really unexpected person wish me!!!! it was pecky!!! OMG!!!!! i was sooooo touched,.... man, i havent met him in such a long time liaoz,.. but he still wished me!!!! hahas,... thx janis, ivan, pecky, everyone else hu's wished me!!!!! i'm really honoured n touched!!!! really appreciate it man!!! luv u all!!!! hahas,...<br /><br />but,... there's a sumone that i really wish wud noe how i feel,... haiz,... i guess, its for e beta that i dun tell him,... ( wo hai shi ai ta),... man,... but,.. Os has to come first!!!! sad,..... n i'm shicked that erika actually wished me luck 4 chinese Os,.... wad a surprise!!!!!<br /><br />hahas,... cant believe that i'm gonna turn 16 in,... 45 mins time!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!!! so fast!!!!!!!!!!!! hahas,.... sweet sixteen!!!! yay!!! hahas,.. i juz feel really very BLESSED now,... luv everyone around me,..... luv choir, my frenz, thou hu shall not b mentioned n my family!!! bro n sis n coming back soon!!!! miss them,, even tho i hate ta admit it,....<br /><br />man!!!! i cant WAIT for SATURDAE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! gonna go to da beach early in da morning with my church pals!!!! gonna play there till we get badly burnt,. then we'll make our way down to church for a popiah fiesta at 3pm!!!!! n then,.. we'd go out at night for MARCHE!!! at heeren,... arnd 7.30pm!!!! yay!!!! n guess wad???? i get to treat them all!!!!! hahas!!!!! so cool!!!hahas,...<br /><br />i'm EXCITED EXCITED EXCITED!!!!!!!! hahas,... hopefully, things'll work out juz fine,....... I LOVE EVERYONE!!!!! lol,... i think i'm high,.... hahas!!!!<br /><br />hahas!!! thank you GOD for blessing me with such wonderful frenz!!!!!! i'm truly blessed!!!!!! ........ -GodBless!!!!- *ciao!!!* cheers~~~~~!!!!! :)<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8259561-111824417822433958?l=cydots.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>-ccy-http://www.blogger.com/profile/12060522777099996436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8259561.post-1116654822328383482005-05-21T13:53:00.000-07:002005-05-20T22:53:42.336-07:00wad's e definiton of a true fren,.. i thought it was sumone who would be there for you whenever you needed them n of coz if they're free,.... but,... it seems, frenz tok behind one another's backs,.... that's like,.... back-stabbing!!! n i hate it,... how bout e fact that frenz shud always b truthful n honest with you??? well,.. i doesnt seen so anymore,..<br /><br />yesterdae i found out that for almost one n a half yrs,... my clique has been toking behind my back... they've been discussing me,... let's see,... they think i'm very contradicting!!! well,.... as it seems,... it's coz,.. it's a total bloody misunderstanding!!!! e fact that when they suspected it,.. they NEVER cleared it u0p with me!!! n they juz let it keep on growing,.. all e doubts about me,... wad's this?? what kinda frenz r you all??? never being truthful to me,.. this really hurts me badly,...<br /><br />n of coz,.. with all this suspicion n all,... i sorta got alienated frm the clique.wad's this??? a theory based on no grounds at all??? it definitely does not give me my rights!!! speculating about me,.. wad for??? i'm juz sooooooo deeply hurt now,... how can we be frenz in this manner then??? it's juz such a sad case,... pathetic in fact,...<br /><br />they really let me down man,... juz juz juz STOP holding things frm me!!! if u think i'm an idiot, say so!!! dun juz keep it to yourselves,... if u think i suck, say so!!! wad's with all e secrecy???? argh!!! i'm juz so frustrated with them!!! i give up man,...<br /><br />go n reflect on urselves man,... why have ur wornged me when i'm onnocent??? i may sound contradicting coz u NEVER ask ME why??? how can u all deprive me of my rights n speculate bout me behind me back???? such back-stabbers, it hurts me so much,...<br /><br />fine!!! i'm insensitive, i'm a bitch, i'm ......... call me wadeva u like!!! i dont care anymore!!!! i'm juz soooooo fed-up with everything now!!!! sum kinda frenz ur call urselves,.....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8259561-111665482232838348?l=cydots.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>-ccy-http://www.blogger.com/profile/12060522777099996436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8259561.post-1116652520809967322005-05-21T13:15:00.000-07:002005-05-20T22:15:20.816-07:00heyzies!!!! havent been blogging in a real LONG time,.... been real bz man,..... haiz, nvm!!! time to update!!!<br /><br />todays e first dae of my broadband experience!!! hahas,.. yeps!!! juz got my broadband after 3 mths of waiting!!!! yay!!!!!! it's like,..... 512 kbps n my old dial up was like,.... 56 bps!!!! wth!!!! lol,.... yeps,.. so now,.. life's in e fastlane!!!<br /><br />well,... my cheerleading chapter has closed,... we got in 2nd !!! its real sad i muz sae,... coz we really practiced however, i did find out that we were likfe,.. 2 digits lesser than e 1st!!! so,.. we still rocked e show man!!!! really happy bout that,... i really miss cheerleading now,.... n i'll never regret my decisions to stay on e squad despite spraining my ankles,.... yeppies!!!<br /><br />so,... i've sprained my ankles, knees n back,... but hey!!! it's ok,... they'll heal,... i've got an MC for 6 mths!!! till 1st nov for not doing PE/Sports/napfa..... lol!!! really funni huh??? call me stupid if you like,... but, no regrets!!!definitely,...<br /><br />currently, there's actually sumthing really bothering me badly about,.. but,.. haiz,.... i'm in no mood to blog it now,.. maybe, tmr,..... we'll see how,.....<br /><br />k, gtg!!! bb my dearie blog,.... 9 daes to Chines Os!!!!!! argh!!!!!! - God Bless!!!!-<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8259561-111665252080996732?l=cydots.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>-ccy-http://www.blogger.com/profile/12060522777099996436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8259561.post-1110115002983385062005-03-06T21:17:00.000-08:002005-03-06T05:16:42.986-08:00my, my,.... it's really been sum time since i last blogged,...... sry bout that,.. life's been real bz n hectic!!! :) but i kinda like wad's happening,.... :)<br /><br />firstly,... let's update with "wad's up???" with my life!!! hahas,.... well,.... gonna get my term 1 report card this fridae,... REAL SCARED!!!! haiz,.. hope that i pass!!!! gonna have 2 tests tmr, eng lit n math.... but i havent studied for neither yet,.... nvm!! can always burn midnight oil,.. :)resently,.. my slping times r like,... slp 2am wake 4.30am??? yeps!!! life's short n so are daes,.... so we must must must spend time wisely!!! yes, we must. amazingly,... i'm kinda gettin used to it,... yay!!!hahas,... O!!! n i got into cheerleading!!! i'm now a blue hse cheerleader!!! hahas,... n MUM AGREED to let me stay in e squad!!!!! yes!!!!hahas....choir's real blahz lately,... gonna have a pre-syf-audition tmr,.... dammit scared lah!!! it's like one rep frm each section sings together,... so it's like a foursome,... where each is singing their own part, so if u make a mistake, it's OBVIOUS!!!! sheez,..... n choir choir choir,seems like the juniors dun understand e importance of us majorly needing to get a GOLD this yr,.. haiz,... then wad's with me writing cheers for them n leading them in it??? kinda useless rite??? hiaz,... pray hard they'll wake up soon,.... coz it's pointless juz letting a Gold get pass us juz due to attitude probs,... haiz,...<br /><br />BUT despite all these setbacks, one can always find joy in other things. yes we can!!! n i definitely find joy in e fact that i enjoy e current "plight" that i'm in,.. coz i love choir with all my heart, i definitely want that gold n i'm gonna persevere!!! i'm in cheerleadin!!! OMG!!! definitely a dream come true for me,.. yay!!! yes, it may b time consuming n tiring,... but hey!!! i luve dancing, i luv e fact that my weight's still e same but i lost my fats n it's being replaced my muscles!!! good!!! a tonned BOD!!! yes!!!! hahas,.... peeps have saed that i slimmed down n lost weight, but my weight hasnt changed abit!! hahas,.. that's good, coz i dun wish to b aneroxic!!!... tat'll b a nightmare!!! hahas,.... n my form teacher's pregnant!!!!!! hahas!! so happy for her!!!...<br /><br />at this moment, i'm drained physically n mentally, but i feel real blessed. coz i'm still spiritually strong!!! yes, i am. :) i thank God for all my church peeps who r there for me wheneva i need them,.... i treasure them with all my heart. thx 4 making my life a beta place to live in. your make for look forward to wad e nxt dae, hr, sec, has in store for me. :) bethany is truly a place where we r like a huge family. luv it with all my heart. .. real excited bout e upcoming easter concert!!!! yeps!! we're gonna do this kinda whoopi goldberg-sister act stlye kinda dance!!! hahas,... n choir rox!!! with all e hilarious peeps (whether they do it on purpose or e unintentionally COMICAL peeps) i tink sum of ur shud noe hu i'm toking bout,... it's such great joy standing where i am in e choir now, coz i've gt crazy n hilarious jesslin, SY, angela n manymore on my side,..... entertaining edwin, moses, ivan, nick, joel, etc.... SO MANY!!! n in front??? "read my lips, wadeva~~~,tok to e hand!!!" copycat QY hu's always making my laugh, tootish boi,.... always "bullied" by theo n jonah,.... n e cute cartoonish sec1 boi hu's always making weird sounds,... n many more!!!hahas,... lame!!! all in all,.... with all this encouragement frm everyone,... i'm definitely having a steadier pace in my walk with God. :)(yay!!! growing in FAITH!!!)<br /><br />i'm juz real thankful for all that's happening to me now,... life's fine n dandy!!!! :)..... went on a major "adding church frenz on friendster" spree juz now,... hahas,...... i'm juz at this stage where i juz LOVE making frenz!!!! hahas,.. weird, but it makes me happy!!! :):):)<br /><br />right now, i'm juz happy to b alive!!!<br /><br />we christians shud nv take e Lord for granted,... keep e holy spirit close to heart so that it can inspire to iluminate our lives n our understanding of e Lord's word... " out on the edge with you as my centre, e point arnd which all my world revolves, every qn can find an answer, every problem can b solved, things seem clearer n i can see u work, but only when i first, make u my centre. "<br /><br />k!!! i definitely gtg!!! gt LOTS to do!!! -God Bless!!!-<br /><br />"for as long as i shall live, i will testify to love, i'll b a witness in e silences when words r nt enuf. with every breath i take i will give thx to God above, for as long as i shall live, i will testify to love..." *cheers!!!*<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8259561-111011500298338506?l=cydots.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>-ccy-http://www.blogger.com/profile/12060522777099996436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8259561.post-1106718233198588672005-01-25T21:05:00.000-08:002005-01-25T21:43:53.196-08:00 wow,... guess wad???? i juz frieked myself to death coz of a chicken pox false alarm!!!.... well,, it turns out to b a viral infection,... nothing serious,... juz HIGH fever, coughing n itching,... tats all!!!! thx to all those peeps hu were concerned 4 me,... really appreciate it!!! :) hahas,.... mum actually quarantined me to my room 4 a day n a half so not to infect my bro n sis with chicken pox in e event i had contracted it,... it was TERRIBLE!!!! but,... a good scare i'd say,.... so now, mum n i have descided to not to take e risk n most probably go 4 me chicken pox vaccine nxt wk,.. so there's no possibility of me gettin it near e O's..... yay!!!! haiz,... but gt a woozy head now,.. like e time i bashed my head into Jeremy's,... hahas!!! <br /> <br /> really thankful that Rechel frm church smsed me a verse to keep in my heart,.... it was encouragement sent at e perfect time!!! juz when i was feeling down,... thx so much Rachel!!! (if u eve read this,..).... hahas,.... i'm really thankful 4 Jonah n Thoedore too!!! ( aka, DJ n Theo!!!).... coz it was during my late nights n times of struggles that they were there 4 me,... helping me stay awake 4 those burn midnight oil sessions,.... hahas!!!! o!!! n Jonah! rmb ur promise of taking me to eat indian food n Durian!!! hahas,.... yeps!!! no lah,.... jk!!! :) o! n theo,... i'll help u with *** ***!!! hahas,.... on Saturday,.. i'll bring her along for dinner with u guyz after church k??? n grab e chance man!!! hahas,... n my suggestion is 4 e whole level to go out during Valentine's day!!! n we'll have fun!!!,... but sadly saying,.. i dun think i'll go, coz i'm grounded,...(hahas,... jonah muz miss me k??? in a friendly way lah,.... no other!!! coz being frenz r beta,... summore,... i've no crushes n u've P*****!!! hahas,..) still, muz make sure ur have fun k??? coz i planned it!!! hahas,... i'm sure u'll b VERY happy,.... :) <br /> <br /> o!!! n as i was telling Jonah,.... with all my past experiences n all,... i now feel that it's best to know frenz at this stage!!! dun let crushes n luvves get in e way of having fun!!! i think it's beta to b single at this time of our lives... coz we're still young!!! well, having a stead is nice... but i'm nt really into being tied down,.. sorta,... but i miss e feeling!!! miss **.... still!!! i conclude that it's more fun to hang out with frenz!!! like my level peeps in church!!! hoo boy,.... e time we went out on christmas dae n a few daes after,.... that was soooo lame!!! but definitely enjoyable,.... e buying of wands,... n watching Kungfu Hustle!!!! tat was LAME!! sure hope i didnt blast Theo's ears with my laughter!!! hahas!!!!.... <br /> <br /> i think i'm a changed person now,.... eva since YC'04.... i feel that i've taken a different perspective to life!!!,.. like i used b shy with mixing arnd,... now, i find that it's FUN to make new frenz,... with my level guyz( since i noe e gurlz liaoz,..), e older gurls,..(like Rachel!!!),.... n e older boiz!!! ( hey!! really appreciate all e encouraging notes n cards i gt on christmas dae!!! thx 4 offering tips n help too!!! really appreciate it!!!) :) i think its beta to b frenz n stay as frenz 4 this time,... cuz it wud ruin out relationship with one another if we let it go to a higher level,... for me now,... crushes r in(even tho e mere determination to nt get caught in such a dilemma when it is so near O's, hits crushes out,... really!! i dun feel butterflies nemore!! juz mere joy at making frenz!!!), relationships r OUT!!! hahas,.... i'm serious,..... <br /> <br /> to Theo n Jonah: i really appreciate all that ur have done 4 me,... may we b frenz, great frenz!!! foreva!!!! :) muz remember to run with me the race this yr!!! let's Dare to run spiritually n physically!!!.... o! n run at e end of e yr to burn off e accumulated fats!!! hahas,.... <br /> <br /> to my HUGE family tree in sch,..... i luv u all!!!! let's aty together n gt 6 pts!!!!! hahas,...... <br /> <br /> to all choir peeps hu r reading this,... let's all get a GOLD!!! no,... GOLD HONEST!!!!! hahas,.... n brig hm e trophy n honour!!!! hahas,..... all vices reserved!!! :) :) :) luv my level clique, janis, siyun, lele, sharmaine, x.ting, sher min, butter, su min, chuwen, yi-en n hanbin!!! :) o!!! nt forgetting PUNK N GEN!!!! ooooo.... luv u too!!!! soooo cute!!!!!..... to all new juniors n sec ones,.... respect ur elders n u'll definitely have fun n grow to luv Choir!!! :) <br /> <br /> sis,... i'm glad ur baptised!!!! i noe i nv told u this,... but yeah,... gonna miss u!!!! take care in Melbourne!!! all e best 4 ur studies!!!,... o!!! n bro,... i HOPE HOPE HOPE that u'll turn over a new leaf n have sume respect for mum n show me that u REGARD me as ur SIS!!!.... dun shove me aside everytime i try n tok to u,... it's really very hard to stay in e same rm as u 4 even 5 minutes!!!!.... tats very sad,..... when ur in Adelaide,... always remember that u haf mum, dad n i back in s'por n sis n melbourne,... ur family!!!! dun drift apart,.... always remember that e Lord is beside u no matter wad,... n chang 4 e beta!!!! i hope u hear my prayer ... - God Bless- <br /> <br /> well,... i gtg!!!! nt feeling too gd again,... wish me luck on my road to a speed recovery!!!! :) luv u all!!! -GOD BLESS!!!-<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8259561-110671823319858867?l=cydots.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>-ccy-http://www.blogger.com/profile/12060522777099996436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8259561.post-1104675814312154032005-01-02T22:23:00.000-08:002005-01-02T06:23:34.313-08:00 Happy New Yr everyone!!! it's e yr 2005!!!! e yr that i have my O'LEVELS!!!! sheezem,,,,,hahas,.... but nvm!!!! i'm gonna share with everyone 2dae a very comforting thought that i've found. That i can always cast my cares to him and that "i can do ALL things throught Christ who strengthens me." philipians 4:13.... it's thx 2 my sis that i got to noe this verse which has really quietened my heart and holds me steadfast!!! :) yes,... 2005 is gonna b a tough yr,... but still,... this is life!!! n i beleive that if i work hard,... i can do it,.. n i dun need anyone to MUST b in my life so that i can do well,..... i can do well n handle my life with or without some people in my life,.... but i definitely cannot do without the Lord, my God. i've found a renewed faith in the Lord during YC'04 and i'm thankful for that. :) may all of you out there who are troubled by the upcoming o'levels this yr b encouraged by this entry!!! o!!! and i got a few quotes to pull me thru e yr ahead,..."To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.", "If you don't value their opinion, DON'T bother.".... well,... i gtg!!! all e best 4 e yr ahead!!! we can make it thru e rain!!! :) *CHEERS!!!* -God Bless!!!-<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8259561-110467581431215403?l=cydots.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>-ccy-http://www.blogger.com/profile/12060522777099996436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8259561.post-1104234042355116452004-12-28T19:40:00.000-08:002004-12-28T03:40:42.356-08:00 OMG!!! Mum went on a rampage 2dae,..... nagging at me bout o levels n all. i know!!! n i'm really worried bout it!!!! she nagged bout e possibility that i wun even get an o'level cert n most likely gonna go ta poly,.... n she saes that dad will NEVER forgive me if i go ta poly!!!! friek it. she's accusing me of not waking early n doing my work n all,.... yeah, i noe that i didn't have science tuition tat much this past holz n no math tuition n all,... but hey!!!! at least i dun literally completely stop studying,...... "cannot be improving, it should b IMPROVED!" that's wad she saes,..... haiz,... i was in e lurch n i'm pulling myself together,..... i noe its too late to regret anything, but helo..... at least i'm making n effort to keep on improving,..... its not like i completely gave up...HAIZ,..... she juz doesnt see it i guess,...... n so,.... she's GROUNDED me!!!!!! wth,..... n skool hasnt even started yet!!!! tmr i got church choir get together n i can't go!! n i gotta meet tr. swee keng tmr during e get together to plan with her 4 tmr!!!!!! oh no,....n then on thursdae, i got springcleaning in skool n then gt meet my level peeps both guyz n gals coz we're gonna have lunch, watch movie, plan 3 sunday n then eat dinner!!! how???????????? oh no,......so daed!!!!! n then on fridaew for down memory lane, i can't go too,... coz grounded!!! how???? we were suppose 2 have a run through for sundae but how now??????? feel soooo irresponsible!!!! n she saes that i'm not to go to YPG nxt yr!!! N YOUTH CHOIR TOO!!!! juz coz sis saes it's wad she did during her o'levels too,....... oh no,....... sadness,....... sumone juz shoot me pls!!!!!!! haiz,.....nvm, i shall seek strength in e Lord during these troubled times!!! gtg neways,........ -god bless!!!-<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8259561-110423404235511645?l=cydots.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>-ccy-http://www.blogger.com/profile/12060522777099996436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8259561.post-1103010887271285992004-12-14T15:54:00.000-08:002004-12-13T23:54:47.270-08:00 OMG!!!! i can't believe it!!!! i juz received my 2nd gd progress award in my whole lifetime so far!!!! yes!!!!!! this is so unexpected as i thought that i didnt really do that well this yr,..... weird!!!! hahas!!!! neways!!!! i DID improve!!!!! finally, i've fulfilled wad i wanted to accomplish this yr!!!! yes! hee hee,.... so happy!!!! i've intended to give some of they money to e church missions fund n e rest,.. well, mum kinda decided it 4 me,.... i've gotta treat e family to dinner!!!!! oh no,..... dinner 4 them is like,..... over 1000 bucks!!!!???? n e sum that i'll b given is 150 bucks! how???? i'll hardly b left with anything to give to e missions fund!!!!,...... haiz,... sadness!!!!!!.... <br /> <br /> 2dae,.... mum woke e whole family at 7.30am!!!!! 4 wad???? o!!!...... we're suppose to do spring cleaning!!!!!! n i cleaned e really gross n mucky kitchen,.... eww!!!!!! well,... it's all 4 e best i guess,... coz we're all doing this 4 e carolling,... which happens this saturdae!!!!! yay!!!!! can't wait!!! <br /> <br /> we've been going grocery shopping e last 2 daes,.... coz certain food items can only b obtained frm certain markets!!! but neways,..... sis, mum n i have already planned e menu 4 saturday!!!! there will b like,.... 2 turkeys, 2 hams,... spaghetti bolognese, carbonara,... honey chicken wings,... erm,...n so much m,ore!!!! i can't even remember it off hand,...... cool!!!!!!! yay!!!!!! super xcited!!!!! :):):) <br /> <br /> well,... gtg back to cleaning n then cooking!!!! *cheers!!!* -god bless!!!-<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8259561-110301088727128599?l=cydots.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>-ccy-http://www.blogger.com/profile/12060522777099996436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8259561.post-1102868945896095222004-12-12T23:58:00.000-08:002004-12-12T08:29:05.896-08:00 heyz!!!!! i'm back frm camp!!! camp was like,... AMAZING!!!! luv youth conference (for those hu do not noe,.... its a church camp which i've attended three times n counting,..)!!! :) neways,... sorry if i shocked ur frm e sudden clean-up of my blog, juz wanted to start life anew!!!! b a better person!!!! concentrate on stuff!!! <br /> <br /> anyways,... i had like e most eventful camp eva!!!! guess y???? coz,.... i got to experience my first time on an operating table coz of camp! hahas,.... u wun believe wad happened,..... come! let me recite my bizarre encounter!!!(My First Time On an Operating Table!!!) <br /> <br /> k! it was like this,... i was playing games on e fist official day of camp,... ones of the games was called "duck n bone",.... sounds kinda unusual huh??? e only difference that it had frm "dog n bone" was that u had to waddle ur way to e item u hafta grab b4 running back. so,... there was this time, when they called out all e people with short sleeves,... n two of the guyz frm my group went out as they were e only two hu had short-sleeves! but 4 my groups gals,.... i was e only one aware of it. so!!! i went ahead to grab e "bone" n somehow or another,.... jeremy, one of e guyz (e other was my bro,..) grabed e "bone" n immediately turned arnd!!! unfortunately,.... i was DIRRECTLY behind him!!!so,..... we sorta had a head-on collision!!!,...oh no!!!! i actually had a split second to imagine myself with a super blue bump!!!,..... n then, i realised that i had alot of warm fluid flowing down e right side of my face,.... naturally, i thought it was pespire,.... so i juz wiped it off!~!! only then, did i realise that it was actually blood!!!!! ALOT of blood in fact! hahas,....n after e collision,... i actually noticed that both jeremy n i had SPUN!!!! REALLY!!!! e only difference was that he spun onto the floor n i juz spun arnd standing,.... n then, my bro noticed blodd on e floor,... so that was when he realised i was bleeding!!!! my!!!!!!! i was in shock!!!! never seen so much of my blood b4,.... so there i was, tearing frm shock n smiling so not to worry anyone n bleeding!!!! real funny sight!!!! (at least thats what my fren saed,...)o!!! n jeremy got a really bad bump on his head almost immediately!!! but guess wad??? within less than 24 hrs,... his bump was gone!!!! but stilll red n abit blak!!! :) funni,.... <br /> <br /> n do u noe wad's e even worst part??? at e exact moment that they were trying to send my up to e office to get first-aid (as i was in e basement,...)"friendship band" happened to juz exit e lift lobby!!!! oh no!!!!!!!! n he saw me all bloody!!!! (that was considering e fact that juz lest than 10 minutes ago, he saw me fine n well!!!!) u shld have seen e shocked look on his face!!!! wow,.... e eyebrows literally shot up!!! hahas,... kinda expected i guess,... coa my t-shirt also had blood.... i muz have looked scary!!!! :) neways,.... not long after when i reached e office,... he appeared!!!!! wow!!! did he run up or wad??? coz that was B2,.. n office was on e 3rd floor,..... funny!!!! :):):)-so much concern!!!!! my heart melts!!!! hahas,...- <br /> <br /> neways,... it turns out that my eyebrow area had split!!!! its bout a 3com long slpit,.... n according to my tr,.... it was a split where u could see e flesh inside!!!! gross!!!!!! hahas,.... so!!!! i got stitched up! (that's where e operating table comes in....)9 stitches!!!!!!!! so many!!!! it was painful! but i was fine,... didnt cry,.... :) neways,... e doc actually saed that it'll take bout 6mths 4 me to actualy COMPLETELY heal,... but juz yesterday, when i took out my stitches,.. they saed i'll b fine in one mths time!!!yay!!!!!! that's good!n do u wanna noe a miracle???? no, its only GOD'S GRACE!!! :) e "miracle" is that e split was on my eyebrow, n that it even followed e shape of it!!!! so it isnt that obvious!!!! hee hee,.... n my advice for a speedy recovery,.... BE HAPPY!!!! SMILE MORE!!!! u'll heal VERY fast!!!! i Promise!!!,....its real funny that jeremy wasnt wearing any glasses or wad so eva n it was his forhead that collided with my eyebrow,... but my skin split!!!! hahas!!!!! but!!! there' always a blessing in disguise i guess,... there's a silver lining in every in cloud!!! yeps!!never mind!!! like sum sae,... i've got a "battle scar"!!! hahas!!!!! to me,.. its in remembrance of my participation in YC'04!!! cool!!!! personally,... i really enjoyed e lessons taught during camp!!!! it has renewed my spirit! n i'm even more determined to " love not e world"!!! *cheers!!!* <br /> <br /> i'm very thankful 4 e people hu took care of me,.... like tr effie( took me to e hospital), my bro( for frieking out), my dad, mum, n sis,.... jeremy!!!! hahas,... he was soooo worried that my sis saed she could see it 4 herself when i saw him e nxt dae,..... n he called me that nite after i came out of e hospital to ask how i was,.... hahas!!!! jeremy has laft a mark!!!! funny isnt it???? o!!!! n i got my very own blood stain left in e carpark of my church!!! in remembrance of my accident!!!! cool!!!!! thks to paster Charlie, pastor Mark n pastor Mitch for their constant enquiries bout how i was feeling,... n evan, jesslin, shi yun, n sui hui!!! thanks to everyone hu has shown me concern n prayed 4 me!!!!...... GOD BLESS!!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8259561-110286894589609522?l=cydots.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>-ccy-http://www.blogger.com/profile/12060522777099996436noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8259561.post-1101740752310430042004-11-29T07:05:00.000-08:002004-11-29T07:05:52.310-08:00testing.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8259561-110174075231043004?l=cydots.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>-ccy-http://www.blogger.com/profile/12060522777099996436noreply@blogger.com0