Friday, July 01, 2005
its been a really long time since i last blogged,... gosh!!! really need to do sumthing bout it,... but, things r soo hectic now! there's pratically no time,.. haiz,... neways,...
farewell'05 for choir's this fridae!!! OMG!!!! feel like crying,... i'm literally steeping away frm e love of my life!!! ahh!!! bought all e prezzies yesterdae tho!!!! all thx 2 shi hui!!! a GREAT fren!! luv her tonnes!!!
neways,... i bought EVERYONE prezzies!!! couldnt resist it!!! coz i;m gonna miss every single TINY detail of CHOIR!!!! GOSH!!!! e tears r flowing!!! aha,... i think e funniest ones will b e ones for my sec ones!!! i bought them BABY BIPS!!! n i'm writing "Choir's BABY" on e front!!!! iznt that CUTE??? hahas,... i think it suits them veri well as they'd always b e choir's babies to me.... *SOBX!!!*
well well,.. besides that,... e farewell theme is PUNK!!! siao~~~ how to dress punk??? i'm sooooo non-punkish!! hahas,.. all e sec 4s almost killed e juniors LOL!!!! but i guess,.. that's e fun of it all!!!! really excited!!!!! yet reluctant for it to come,... coz that'll mean e end of my choir journey with e SN CHOIR!!! GOSH!!! LOVE U GUYZ LOADS!!!!! ur rawk my SOX!!! hahas,...
on another note,... e mock exams haf started!!! tmr's gonna b my english mock~! n i dunno howta prepare for it!!! ah!!!,.... well,...... the weeks b4 n ahead r tough!!!! on e average,.. its about 6 tests/exams per week!!!! ahh!!!!!!! dying here.//// really need ta stay strong,. but my body seems to b giving way!!!!! wad's happening??? -.- sadness..
well,... i really miss yy loads,... howeva!! studies MUZ come first,.... gosh!!!! e tug of e heart-strings!!! wad'll happn nxt??? i dun even noe!!!
reminisence has settled in for me,... many sad stuff r flooding back,.... but i dun want them to!!! many things that r happening now seems to b history repeating itself!!! n mind u,.. they arent happy thots at all!!!! its like,... they've come back to haunt me!!! ahh,.. nightmares,... y??? ahh,.....i hate being reminding of my past life,.... it was pathetic!!!
y do we always feel left out sum way or another??? haiz,.. it always seems so,... even things R beta,.... its nt them or anyone,... i think it's LIFE!!! sure kinda sux,...haiz,.. i guess its coz of my past n life experiences that i can nv go back e other way n b a diff person,... there muz b sum reason behind all this,... i guess i juz havent seen or found it yet,....sad case... maybe they hate me for my guts!!!!! i think it runs in my family,... dao meh!!!
there was a misunderstanding of me a few mths back,..... i was injustly wronged,..... n my fren helped me sort it out by being e mediator,.... howeva,.... e nxt time i saw e frens which wrong me,... they NV saed a word of sry!!!!! that broke my heart.,... i mean,.. till now they havent saed anything.,.. NT A WORD OF E SITUATION AT ALL!!!! is this evidence of their guilt??? understandable,.. but PL:S!!! SAE SUMTHING ABOUT IT!!! ur hurt me real bad n expect me to juz put it behind me n heal???? thats like throwing me in e dump!!!,.... despite all this,.. i still gt show ur that i'm happy,.. yes!! i AM happy that things have gotten beta,... but a word of sry would heal my hurt,..... now,.,. i'm broken,...... haiz,.... people seem to take other for granted BIG time!!! sad sad case,..
that was a little part of me buried deep down in me..... i try to forget it everidae,..... but i seem to fail everytime.....
things R hard now,.... but i'll cope!!! bo worries bout that......
Lord, keep me strong i pray,...
-God Bless!!!-
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