Friday, July 08, 2005
GOSH!!! 2dae's such a HOT HOT HOT DAe!!!! cant take it,... dying here,..
life at hm's real tough,... dunno wad's happening,... mum saed " y muz u make our lives sooooo MISERABLE???!!!" omg,... that really hurt me real bad!!! to tell truthfully,.. when i heard that,.. e first thing that came to mind was to run away,... i'm serious,... how pathetic,... but!!! i managed to calm myself b4 doing anything drastic n silly,.... do i really make their lives miserable!!!??? she saed she gives up on me... washing her hands clean of me,... am i that detestable??? its like i cant even haf a civilised tok with her anoymore,... my heart really aches,... y??? am i incorrigable??? haiz,..
been sick for e past 2 daes,..... weird fever,... going on n of,.... making me break out in cold sweat,... weird!!! n mum doesnt believe that i'm sick,... she's saes i'm pretending,.. maybe its coz she doesnt care anymore.... wad happened??? y's she doing this to me??? she's MY MOTHER for ***'s SAKE!!! omg,...... dunno wad's happening,....
hormones have been getting out of control recently,... dunno whether izit juz eye candy??? or izit i really like ****..... weird,...... n then, there's **, i still veri much love him....its sooooooo hard to tell myself that this cant go on,... even emily saed he's a good man,... i agree wholeheartedly...... but i guess,... studies haf to come first.... hormones r weird!!! making my heart jump non-stop for weird reasons,..... really miss his touch tho,... wish i cud hug him... but i noe i cant... heart's breaking,,,... trying to get over it,..... hard!!!
life's weird,..... that's all i can sae,..... my air-con died on me,.. so sad!!!! n summore,... S'pore's SOOOOOO HOT!!!!! gosh,... e heat's killing me,...
is she a jekyll n hyde??? or izit juz a figment of my imagination??? i hope its e second option,,... wad if its not???? sooooo many r gonna b hurt,.... veri troubled by this,.... sumtimes i juz wish i was oblivious n stupid,.. ignorant to my surroundings,.... nv reading body languages n innuendos,.....
really really really veri tired now.,.... fell like i need to break down.... can sumone lend my a shoulder to cry on???? trying to stay strong.,...
hope things between mum n i will get beta,.... coz it'll affect her health,... hope dad's getting beta oso,......
really hope ***** will open up n tell me wad's going on,.. maybe he is,.. but i'm juz soo troubled by other stuff to see e picture,... feel really bad,.....he saes he may see me during e anniversary dinner,... i sure hope so,.... juz wanna noe he's fine,....
y r things sooooo complicated???
really appreciate my frenz tho,... thx for always being there 4 me,...
haiz,... well,... i guess i gtg,..... *CHAO!!* -God Bless-
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